Thanksgiving holiday was a bit sad. Well, not a bit, it was sad. Sigh. I don't want to talk about it and dwell. Needless to say, we're still feeling the aftermath of it and I hope things will go back to normal soon. I'm glad Grandma was able to make it though. And the food was delicious and it was lovely being around family, of course. My dad's coworker made me a batch of her amazing peanut butter cookies which was nice!

These past few days my mind has been filled with thoughts of Christmas shopping. I really want to get something unique for my mum and dad. I don't want to get them what I always get them. I was browsing the Tiffany & Co. website and got some ideas. My dad loves beer so I thought these beer glasses would be nice for his bar counter. And I saw this pretty necklace for my mum but I really love the idea of getting her a bottle of nice wine with this pretty wineglass.

I've also hung out with Chelsea which was one of the greatest things to have happened recently. I really missed her! It's always so fun being around her because we just act silly and laugh alot. The first time we went to have coffee and just talked for a really long time outside the coffee shop about everything that has happened to us since we last talked. A couple of days later we went out for drinks and Isaac came, too. Her birthday is this weekend!

Other nice things:

• New cupcake cookie jar
• New book, Emmy and the Incredibly Shrinking Rat
• Selling my DS Lite finally
• Making extra money to buy an Iphone
• Beautiful weather
• Getting a Hello Kitty debit card
  

I'm sitting here in my room really wishing that Isaac could have slept over. It's such a cold night. We could have kept each other warm and fallen asleep. We could have woken up to a cold morning and sunlight streaming through the blinds. We could have gotten dressed, pulled on our jeans over our thermal underthings, put on our sweaters and cardigans and coats and warm things, and stepped out in the chilly morning to drive somewhere to have breakfast. We could have spent the afternoon together before I had to go to work at four. It would have been perfect. But he can't. And he won't be able to because of his parents, because they think it's wrong and don't even know how much we are in love. And that makes me sad. I wish they knew me and approved. Usually I try not to let this bother me but tonight I remembered and I couldn't keep it from making me sad. I pushed him away and I'm sorry I did that but I couldn't pretend to be happy, not tonight. I couldn't be satisfied that he was there with me, at that moment. I couldn't walk him to the door and give him kisses and hugs good-bye. All I could think about were the lovely times we could be having if he were allowed to stay over sometimes. Staying up late and laughing and loving and waking up to each other.

I will try to change the subject and write about something else. Like how I am loving the cold weather. Like how my grandparents are coming tomorrow for Thanksgiving. They will be here for a week and I'm sure there will be lots of baking. Like how amazing Unwed Sailor was, how amazing it was to see them play Copper Islands, my favorite song. Like how I've been devouring lots of books. This month alone I've read ten books. And at the moment I'm in the midst of three more. Like how I will be seeing Chelsea Main in a couple of days, meeting for coffee and talking about our lives. It's been so long since I've seen here. Like how Geraldi will be coming down sometime this week. It's been months since I've seen her, too. And, of course, all the amazing moments and time I spend with Isaac. All the kissing and love making and whispers. These things make me smile. I should remember that.

Dear friends,
My internet connection has been driving me so crazy. Pages and photos aren't loading and I have to keep refreshing the page at least five times before they start to work. It gives me such a headache and makes me not want to be on the internet. Hopefully this will go away soon.

This week has passed by so fast. I've just been reading, listening to music, and spending time with Isaac. The other day we went shopping! A friend of mine who works at Banana Republic gave us a Friends & Family discount card to use at Old Navy, Gap, and Banana Republic. Sadly, Isaac couldn't find anything he liked at those stores but he did buy some really amazing shoes at Aldo. And I bought some pretty lingerie from Gap, a dress from Old Navy, and a lovely silk turquoise blouse from Banana Republic. It was the first time I went shopping in quite a long time. Usually I just spend my money on books and food. Pictures later, perhaps!

Speaking of, my sleepy-head boy is still sleeping at four o'clock in the afternoon and I wish he'd wake up soon because I miss him so.